23 June 2023
there are only two people you should aim to make proud in your life. the 8-year old you and the 80-year old you.
I think I made the decision a long time ago, unintentionally, as a way to hold onto my true identity. I might have been under the age of eight. I remember a difficult evening and sharp words that lead me to my mirror.
My room had a blue oval mirror, and next to it my father drilled in brass hooks for me to hang bags, scarves, and long beads. It was a safe place for me to retreat into myself, writing in my journal, and listening to music. I had complete freedom in my room, and my mother allowed me to be myself in that space.
When I looked into the mirror that specific evening, I made a decision to follow my inner voice, to believe what my spirit told me to be true. A lot has happened since then and I have many stories tucked away in my conscious mind.
When I attended a function a few weeks ago, someone took a photograph of me while I was in a deep conversation with someone that I had seen twenty-seven years ago.
The photo reminded me of the little girl in the blue mirror, and I pondered about the many ways that I have changed.
Contemplating integrity as a way of life is like decideing to leave your homeland and become a citizen of a new country: it involves a major identity.
Martha Beck
I changed in ways that I never expected. There is a sense of purpose and a higher spiritual awareness that sometimes leaves me uncertain. I learned to embrace the transformation and are still in the process of navigating this specific stage on my journey to my eighty-year-old self.
The past few years taught me to embrace the unknown but also to find unity and connectedness in the world around me. There are so many days when my conversations with God centres around my questions about purpose. He is silent (I have become accustomed to His silence) but He shows me to spread His alignment to others.
I made a conscious decision to stay aligned with my true personal nature. Society no longer has power over me to inform me to do the right thing and to live in a certain way.
I had a similar experience this morning, someone said some sharp words that lead me back to this picture of myself. I intentionally went into my inner sanctum to find my own voice and waited for my spirit to tell me what is true.
I am only sixty years old, and I have twenty more years on this journey where I can grow. I will honour my personal nature; I will stay aligned with God and my spirit because the eighty-year-old me is growing into something entirely different. I hope I will be proud of her.
12 thoughts on “finding the path to my true self”
Hi Liza .Ons moet praat …….
Dit sal so lekker wees, kom ons maak ‘n tyd vas.
Laai Comera af op jou telefoon .Nie geblok in Dubai ,Dis ‘n internet telefoon oproep stelsel wat baie goed werk .Doen dit en laat weet my more .Ons is 2 ure voor SA dan chat ons ……jy moet internet op jou foon he of naby ‘n internet stelsel wees.
Done! Ek stuur vir jou my selfoon nommer op fb messenger dan kan jy my invite.
I need to see you again.
It would be lovely to see you – I will leave a link for you to set up an appointment. Stay warm!
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Hi Liza I will do so. I just need to see the Dr and hear what next.
Lorraine
Dis jou woorde… maar ek wens dieselfde xxx
Ek het altyd gedink ek het nou op 64 klaar gegroei, maar jou woorde laat my wonder….
Soos altyd, is dit vir my ‘n vreugde om hier by jou te lees. (Daardie rok is allermooi!)
Baie inspirerende gesels wat jy hier gedoen het. In my geval het ek nog 3 jaar om by te voeg by my lewenservaring. Daar is steeds geleentheid om te leer en te groei, ook om uit te styg bo kleinlikhede en niks beduidende belewenisse. Jy sal verbaas wees hoe baie nog bygevoeg word aan verdere ondervindings.
Dankie Frannie! 🌷🌷🌷